Stranger

I still wished to see the universe behind those eyes.

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I Wish I Could Still Write About You

I wish I could still write about you.

I wish I could still engrave your name on a diary just like what I used to do.

I wish I could still write on how we first met,
I wish I could still write on how your brown eyes can open up a soul — in the most amazing way that I have ever seen.
Or about the first time I held your hand and how it felt so safe.
Or maybe about the most craziest thing we’ve been through.
Or even the worst thing we did together.
It’s been years but,
I wish I could still write about how grateful I am to have you in my life.
I wish I could still write about how much I wanted you to be with me forever.
I wish I could still write on how the little things that you do makes me wanna be with you for as long as I could.

I wish I could still write about you.
I wish I could still write hundreds of poems on how much I love you.

I wish for it every day.
Only that, you’re not my story nor my poem to write anymore.

And I wish I could write about you till I bleed no more.

—ARD 🌸

Lost

It’s funny how years can go by and yet, I can still feel your breath against my ear when you whisper my name, the tingling sensation running through my spine every time you held me so close to your body, the touch of your warm hands exploring every inch of my being. And it was amazing, the thought of you having me is exhilarating enough for me to forget that the stars and the moon shines above, watching us. The thought of you having me is almost enough for me to forget the world. Only that, you we’re long gone, and here I was, still lost in your eyes. I

Paalam Lola

Hey, guys! Wanna apologize for not being active lately. I’ve been away from the world of WordPress for a long time because me and my family faced the biggest challenge of our lives. I haven’t shared it here yet, but yeah, My grandma, (father side) fought a hard battle after being stroked and just this month of August, she passed away after having a cardiac arrest. I really don’t know what to feel. It felt so unreal. I can’t bring myself to write something about anything. So I figured, I will just share to you guys the poem that I made for my grandmother. And also as a tribute for her. It was purely made from the bottom of my heart and I hope, you’ll appreciate it. Love lots! – A

Basahin mo muna, hindi tungkol sa akin ito;

Naalala ko, noong ika-labing walong kaarawan ko, kumpleto.

May mga pagkain, kantahan, halakhakan, at kwento.

Kuntento, oo.

Pero noong pumasok ka sa durungawan ng pinto; mas dumoble ang tuwang naramdaman ko.

Hindi ko akalaing maaalala mo ang isa sa pinaka-importanteng araw gaya nito.

Hindi kasi ganito,

Hindi kasi tayo malapit katulad nito.

Ngunit nakangiti ka, kitang kita ko ang kulubot sa gilid ng mga mata mo,

Habang sinasabi ang mga katagang ito,

 “Happy Birthday, Apo.”

Naalala mo.

Sa higpit ng yakap mo, alam kong naalala mo.

Alam ko noong mga sandaling yon, mahal mo ako.

Salamat sa pag-ibig, lola.

Salamat sa buhay.

Salamat sa lahat ng bagay na nagmula sa iyong mga kamay.

Mananatili kang buhay sa puso at isipan.

Hanggang sa muli, lola.

Mamimiss kitang tunay.

Ikaw at Ako

Paminsan-minsan, may mga araw pa rin talagang naiisip kita. Na kahit gaano katagal nang panahon ang lumipas, iniisip ko pa rin kung kamusta ka na kaya? Kumakain ka ba sa oras? Nakakatulog ka ba nang maayos? Ano na kaya ang ginagawa mo? Masaya ka na ba ulit? Iniisip mo rin ba ako? O isang alaala na lang ba akong matagal nang kumupas para sa iyo?

Sa mga pagkakataong lumilipad ang mga tanong na yan sa isip ko, madalas kong titigan ang nag-iisang larawan mong pinakaiingatan ko. Siguro hindi ako ganito ka miserable kung nandirito ka. Siguro, ayos lang sa akin kung talikuran man ako ng lahat kasi alam kong nandyan ka. Siguro pupunasan mo ang aking mga luha kada iiyak ako at sasabihing “ayos lang yan, di naman kita iiwan.” Siguro patatawanin mo ako tulad noon. Miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na kita. Kahit taon na ang lumipas, ikaw pa rin talaga. Walang iba. Hindi naman sa pinipilit kita, pero pwede bang bumalik ka na?

Hindi ko maipaliwanag iyong pangungulila ko sa’yo. Masyadong malalim na sobrang nakakalunod na, hindi ko alam kung makakaahon pa ba ako o hindi na. Masyadong masakit sa damdamin, hirap na akong huminga. Masyadong maigting na para bang sabik na sabik akong masilayan kang muli at makulong sa iyong mga bisig. Sa lugar kung saan ako nararapat. Sa lugar kung saan ligtas ako, kung saan panatag ako. Kung saan masaya ako kahit ikaw lang at ako.